Gwen Stefani lived in personal hell as marriage crumbled

Stefani, 46, and Rossdale, 50, called it quits after 13 years of marriage last summer, but it was in February of 2015 when Stefani first confronted the Bush rocker abouthis alleged affair with their children’s nanny.

“It was the beginning of hell. Like six, seven, eight months of torture, trying to figure out this big secret,” the rocker said in the August issue of Harper’s Bazaar.

She looked to songwriting and spirituality to help her through the trying time.

“What happened was praying,” she said. “That’s my childhood, that’s how I was raised. And I think I strayed from that. But you know when it gets that bad, you just get desperate? You’re on your knees. You’re like, ‘What do I do?’ You can’t even go to your parents and ask them what to do.”

A higher power granted the mom of three much deserved solitude in the form of “Voice” co-star Blake Shelton. The pair confirmed their unexpected romance in November.

“And then it was just like everything flipped,” Stefani explained. “It went from horrible to, like hopeful, and like, ‘Wow, God, you just don’t know what’s gonna happen next.’”

This article originally appeared in the New York Post and is republished here with permission.